
Saturday, October 9, 2010
eh, sorry yesterday tak update. ani, baru saja recharge credit. (:
so, right now, tengah tengok tv & melimpang. went to kb tadi, with Mom, Dad & Alif.
eh bro, ada cerita yo. hahah, apade. so, aa, I was thinking... thinking macam sibuduh. then I come to a point where I think my dad really don't trust me anymore. I think he hates me. you know, I have done THOUSANDS of things just to make him proud & finally wins his trust back. I have good results on my exam this year. no #7 out of #32 in class. I have LOTS of certificates this year; 1) BGIC [world wide!] 2) netball 3) Art competition 4) Maths carnival 5) Art [again] 6) Camping 7) Australian Maths. etc... inda cukup ka? I've done my chores at home well, I pray, I study, inda melawan, I helped mom, inda kelaie, inda whatsoever. somehow, it's not enough~ I'm broken hearted... cuba kamu, everything you do/did, it seems like, he doesn't appreciate it. I've talked about this with my sister, she said, dad really cares. but I... I just, I just think he doesn't. :S I know I've did something wrong in the past, but past is past right? PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE forgive me. we don't get along. kaka, Alif & Anah, durang okay sama bapa. but Ijah inda. )': I just don't get it... everytime I'm with dad, it feels very awkward. we don't talk together. please don't hate me, but I know you do.
ya Allah, I wish that I can tell him(dad) that I love him with all my heart. and I wish I can turn back time, and un-do what I did wrong. I always wish I was a little girl again, where dad kan cuddle me tight, where I feel save on his arms. (':
p/s: I Love my Mom, Dad, Sisters & my Brother. other relative & my friends too.
NFBS.
♥our lips must always be sealed
10/09/2010 09:19:00 PM